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april 10

alas!  i had my enrolemnt yesterday; it was the same as last year. 

 Before arriving at UST, my Mom and i argued about the enrolment procedure.  She insisted that I should go get a pre-enrolment form from our chairman before I could go to the seminary gym. She also said that she haven't withdrew money yet.  I remebered that after the advising of my subjects, I went straight to the seminary gym to register.  Then she added that I wasn't listening to her and I haven't change my habits.  After she said that, I just cried and  wasn't able to say goodbye to mom.

I went to to the dean's office and talked to sir "bon".  He reffered Mrs. De guzman, chairman of ESC to us.  Unfortunately she wasn't there so I went straight to the gym. 

aun, kasama ko si robert,janos,and kackie.. When we arrived at the gym, the line of the eng students was not that long so we had high hopes of finishing early.  Then again, our assumption was wrong!!!   The students were getting bigger and unfortunately,  chaos was building up in the waiting area.  The late eng students who were in the far end of the perimeter were instructed to sit with the AB,Educ, Commerece and Science students.I and my bros though that the officers knew that we were the first batch of students.  When it was time for us to go inside, whhhaaaattfddaaa ! ! ! The eng studs who sat with the other college stud were the ones who were able to go inside.  hai, another factor that made me so mad was a co-ICS student who wasn't our friend went with our line. ANAK NG SINGIT YAN,NAKIKIPAGUSAP LANG SANDALI TAPOS GANUN! He got thechait which was  for my friend.  I was so pissed coz he did that move again last enrolment.  hai,my friends tolg me that be calm and don't mind him nalang. Aun, after 3 1/2 hrs of sitting in the Peak of the day without food and water, I was able to enrol my subject.

Thank You Lord

" maari bang ako nalang ang kahel sa bahaghari ng puso mo? maari kayang dito ka nalang sa tabi ko at hindi na lalayo? maari kayang dalhin kita sa isang paraisong di na kita pakakawalan? maari kayang maging anghel mo para ikay' protektahan at alagaan ng walang hanggan? maari kaya,malabong mangyari kaibigan kong minamahal.. "

-kathanico

1:00 na ng umaga di pa ako natutulog,hai windang parin sa mga nangyari.

Naglinis na ako ng aking kwarto
Na punong-puno ng galit at sakit
Mga bagay na hindi ko na kailangan
Nakaraang hindi na pwedeng balikan

Mga liham ng pagkakaibigan at nilihim kong pag-ibig
At litrato ng kahapong maligalig
Dahan-dahan kong inipon
Ngunit ngayo'y kailangan nang itapon

Di ko na kayang mabuhay sa kahapon
Kaya mula ngayon, mula ngayon

May alaala mong nabubulok sa sulok
Na inaalikabok na sa lungkot
May panyong ilang ulit nang niluhaan
Isang patak sa bawat beses na ako'y nasaktan

Ala-ala ng lumuluhang kahapon
Dahan-dahan ko na ring kinakahon
Di ko matagpuan ang tunay kong ligaya
Lumabas ako ng kwarto't wala parin siya

Magpapaalam na ako sa aking kwarto
Magpapaalam na sa 'yo
Magpapaalam na sa 'yo ang aking kahapon

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i miss my mom..

i miis my sister..

i miss papa..

i miss them..

i miss her..

 

   I contemplated in the midst of the words my mom told me "ganyan ba ang Christian..."; I was selfish, hot tempered and treasured my friends more than my family.  I wanted to tell her that it was not true, I love them so much.  I know that after the argument with my mom, I thought of doing the same thing that mingles in my stupid brain...

 

            As I switch the lever of blade, unwanted thoughts clouded my mind.  I wanted to be with my papa.

 

            I felt so worthless.  I cried.  I realized that I should address several issues that have been in my life for 19 years and deal with current problems I have.  hai... My mom and dad told me that I was a clever person which I never accepted.  If I'm "matalino", I won't be failing.  They said that I was too pre-occupied with extra curricular activities which I don't have.  Say what?  I don't go in clubs, bars, parties, concerts or in overnights.  They never approved to them coz it'll not do me good.  The "party" I last attended, which they considered it to be was the annual "Paskuhan". hai... Eating with my classmates or they would say my "barkada" was another pre-occupying activity that they wanted me to avoid.  I admit me talk while we eat but how can we avoid that?  After we finish the meal, we don't go strolling in the campus nor go to malls or watch a movie- we go home.  In addition to that, I'm not with my barkada (SA mafia), we have different activities after class and I for one go with the girls to eat.

           

            After all these fuzz, I went to my mom's room and apologize.  I can't remove the fact that I've been a pain in the neck and butt (sorry for the term but it really suits me..).  I've been so harsh to my mom lately and never appreciated all the things she made for me...I'm so ashamed...I respected my mom so much...I went straight to her arms...I told her that I'm sorry...I told her that I'm not over from papa's death...I'm so pressured with the responsibilities that dad passed on to me...I don't want to fail them, they expected so much from me and I don't know how to start doing these tasks...

hell week ngaun tapos next week,nakakaasar!daming gagawin at ang daming pag-aaralan.me exam ako tom sa IT102(electronics,logic circuits) at sa CS101(data structures&algorithms)!!!sana sinabi ni sir agad para nakapagprepare,hai nako..aun,dame ko pa namang gustong isulat at gustong sabihin..after finals nalang.ito na siguro ung last post ko..God bless po sa exams!

"maari bang ako nalang ang kahel sa bahaghari ng puso mo?maari pang dalhin kita sa isang paraisong di na kita pakakawalan?maari bang maging anghel mo para ikay' protektahan at alagaan ng walang hanggan?maari kaya,posible ba kaibigan kong minamahal.."